the snow

learning to belong

the snow 
falls and rests
on trees and fields
the stars
shine softly down
and twinkle bright
i am
lying on a hill
in the middle of nowhere
the whole void of space
where my heart 
used to beat
constellations replace 
my ribcage
black hole lungs
devour 
all light

that is what it feels like
anyway
it feels
like a super nova
has exploded in my chest 
it feels
like an endless 
sea of dark matter
it feels like
a kind of death

this earth is beautiful 
with all her bright lights
snowy fields
winter frost with
ice blue flame
this earth is so beautiful 
i wish i belonged in it
but i am not beautiful 
and the stardust
is always 
calling
my name

oh but
to exist in this world
is to be a part
nonetheless 
i am not beautiful 
like the heavens
are beautiful 
i have
no stars 
in my eyes
but
i belong 
to this earth
in its cold snowy splendour 
i belong to this earth
like the clouds
to the skies